I've been away for a number of days in connection with that all encumbering part of my life that I don't really need to write a large account of here other than it's so very much the me I've been talking about for the last ten months or so about here.
There are some reflections I do feel the need to talk about about on here one is learning to be grateful for what people freely do for you such as seeing I was struggling at one railway station a couple kindly offered to help carry my luggage and even checked when I got to the end of the stairwell I was all right who I no idea of.
There's the people who kept an eye on me as I was feeling a little homesick where I stayed, spending time with and the friend who knowing the sort of fiction I like, gave me a cherished book from their collection.
Then there is a friend of mine who kindly put me up, offering a cooked meal and a lift to the train coming back completely out of the blue, seeing I was on the right platform for my train to come in.
These acts of kindness really moved me but whereas in the past I'd of blocked out my emotions I thanked them properly for all those things they did not have to do,that I have no right to expect nor demand expressing my gratitude, revealing my sense of being humbled openly.
It's been a funny week as I slowly work my way through my emotions which hasn't been easy by a long stretch.
I'll start this post by thanking Danny and several others for your concern during this period which saw me doing a few differing things, trying to understand it all.
I was having what I felt was an interesting conversation with someone who inexplicably just chopped me off in mid flow with not even a hint of irritation so I can only assume they had to borrow that modern phrase, 'lost it'.
On the other hand I did find a series of conversations with someone with certain of needs in common, very helpful when it came to trying to understand more of my own and also for their support in dealing some of the emotions I've been experiencing though the week.
Also a number of people gave me some useful feedback around a subject I do find difficult to deal with.
Between this I dusted my teddy bears and found some recordings, the 'Mastered for iTunes' Abba and Jackson Browne albums I'd bought about 9 months ago from iTunes and put them finally on the card I intended to but didn't get around to.
I'm fairly sure I'll work my way through this.
